I am a "first time mother" at the age of 39. I am a "first time mother" with so many thoughts in my head, and so many things to say... hopefully friends, family & strangers will care to read.
My husband and I welcomed our beautiful baby girl, Julianna Belle, into the world on May 23rd of this year & she is the love of our life! She weighed 7 lbs, 10 oz. She is 4 weeks old and has already turned our world completely upside down. I've learned so much from this little 9 pound human. I have never been more anxious, overwhelmed, excited, and happy at the same time! It's a roller-coaster of emotions every day - and here I thought all those heightened emotions ended when the pregnancy was over. Well, it doesn't. It has only just begun!
Up until the age of 37, I never really thought having a baby was for me. I saw other people with kids and it scared me. OK, actually, it terrified me! Over the years, I saw some unhappy people in unhappy marriages that seemed to project their misery on their children & everyone around them. I, of course, thought that would happen to me if I chose to have a baby. So why mess with my nice little happy life? What changed me??
The love I have for my husband is what changed me. The amazing relationship we have, changed me. He really wanted to have kids, and finally I stopped thinking about myself, and stopped being selfish... and I started thinking about what kind of parents we would make, and what kind of love we have to offer a child, and how great it would be to create this human that would have both of us in him/her. I always knew my husband would make an incredible father, since he is the most caring & loving person I know. We made the decision, and it sure did work out. It might be the best decision we ever made. And yes, we are actually getting sleep at night!
Yes I am thrilled to have Julianna - but no, I do not want another (for all of you thinking it!). I do not want to go to my kid's high school graduation riding the nursing home bus, showing up in a wheelchair! LOL!
Things I have discovered since becoming a first time mom...
- Everyone around you gets soooo excited about your first baby!
- It annoys me when people feel it is necessary to 'warn' me of all the horrible things that might await us. Especially when the sentence starts with "Just wait until..."
- There are no words to describe the happiness I feel inside when I look at her little angelic face.
- Poop & Pee make for a great marital conversation.
- Multitasking "squared" becomes the norm! i.e. Rocking a fussy baby in one hand & cleaning up dog puke with the other hand!
- Sleep "IS" possible at night when your husband does 50% of everything (diapers, feedings, soothing, baby snuggling, cleaning, cooking, and still being a husband)
- My husband is even a more amazing father than I imagined he would be!
- Snuggling with my baby instantly fixes anything that is wrong in my world.
- Going to the store is no longer easy or quick.
- 9 pounds of crying, squirming, wiggling baby scares me more than anything else in my 39 years ever did - and she knows it!
- Love is easy. Knowing how to soothe a crying baby is hard!
- It is possible to go out to dinner with the baby and live to tell about it.
- Babies don't come with manuals. (Why not?!? Someone ought to change that!)
- Everyone has an opinion on how I should raise my baby.
- You do become immune to smelly, poopy diapers.
- The louder the burp, the happier I am!
- Before I had a baby, I never could fully appreciate how hard parenthood could be.
- Before I had a baby, I never could fully appreciate how rewarding parenthood could be.
- The snot sucker is over rated.
- Of course my baby is the cutest baby ever!
That's all for now. I'll write more soon enough!